Pep Talk 101
2004-07-12 - 9:42 p.m.
Dear Koko --
You can do this. You knew it would be hectic. Besides, challenges are fun, right? You can totally ace this exam on Wednesday even though you must work from 5 a.m. - 2 p.m. each day and attend class from 5 p.m. until 8:30 p.m. each day. There is time for studying. You just have to eliminate some sleep and find it. And, you will have time to relax on Thursday even though you have lab reports due and worksheets due. And, if you work on Friday, it will make it possible for you to take Sunday off instead of working all weekend. This way, when you go to visit your grandma on Friday night, it won't be like your Friday off day wasn't really an off day. On Sunday, you can do nothing. So, here is what I propose:
Tonight: Continue studying until you fall asleep or it's midnight.
Tomorrow: Wake up at 4 a.m., work from 5 a.m. - 2 p.m., nap, wake up at 4 p.m. and go to class. Cram dinner down your throat and study from 9 p.m. until midnight tomorrow.
Wednesday: Wake up at 4 a.m., work from 5 a.m. - 2 p.m., study, attend class, grocery shop, complete lab reports and worksheets due on Thursday.
Thursday: Go to the Beach? Attend class from 5 p.m. - 8:30 p.m.
Friday: Work from 5 a.m. - 2 p.m. Visit grandma at 5 p.m.
Saturday: Work from 5 a.m. - 2 p.m. Shop for scrubs. Attend St. Cecilia's Fest.
Sunday: Sleep in?
Then, you get to do it all over again next week. It will be over soon, I swear. And, you'll have all the time in the world to unpack and work on your new house and everything. All you have to do right now is get through school and get stuff packed up enough that you can haul it down the road in two point five weeks. And then, you can also do fun things like sit on your ass, or concentrate on eating the right foods, or even exercising. You can even enjoy a day at The Beach without feeling guilty about it.
Maybe you shouldn't go to St. C's fest on Saturday. I know you just sent out that email to Brian telling him you would go, but perhaps you just need to chill. Every day is too crammed full of shit for you right now.
I think you need to take a Leave of Absence from stress right now. And going to St. C's fest is stressful for you. Also, you do not need to scrub shop this weekend. You do not start your fun scrub job for two more weeks. You can wait until next weekend if you want. I know, I know... you want the scrubs now so you can play in them. Well tough shit. Use the one pair you have now. Oh, you'll get others. And, I'm sure there will even be a time in your life when you will HATE scrubs. Just like you HATE school right now. Remember when you loved it? It was about this time last year. You couldn't wait. Oh, I know you don't really HATE school. I know you're a total geek/nerd when you're there. Learning about centrioles and shit and then comparing them to the loofah things on the Dove exfoliating commercial. Yes, you are so smooth. Incorporating biologee jazz into commercials.
So, anyway... just get through these next three weeks. Things can wait. Even the Beach can wait. Besides, you don't really want to go to work for an Oncology place with a major sunburn, do you? The housework can wait (although, you've done quite a fine job in that department already... I'll bet you never realized just HOW dirty that bathroom sink can get, did you?) and even the damn dishes can wait. It would be nice if Booie would help, but you know that will never happen so don't get stressed about it. Shit, look at all of the stuff you've done with the new house so far. And Booie's done nothing.
So, just be nice to yourself, will you please? Everything will be okay.
