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And yes, I do take Cymb@lt@ 2009-10-23 - 8:57 p.m. I re-started this thing almost three weeks ago. And, I keep meaning to write in it, but I feel as if I have nothing important to write. I keep waiting for that perfect subject, but it doesn't happen. I know I wanted a safe place to write about work, but even with that, I've nothing to write. I mean, I could write about some of my cute muffins... like the one who came in three weeks ago and was diagnosed with neuroblastoma. She couldn't walk and we were doing neuro checks every hour. If anything, we do neuro checks every four. We were waiting for the tumor to push on her brain stem and cause her to stop breathing. In addition to being in her legs, arms and abdomen, the tumor was wrapped around her spinal cord and really took rook in her C-spine. But, it never happened. She started chemo almost immediately. Three days later, she was walking. She just went home earlier this week - oh, she'll be back for more rounds of chemo, but she was seriously near death three weeks ago. And she just walked outta there on Tuesday. And then, my other muffin, who is 22 - he WILL die. And maybe not very soon. He has a glioblastoma - which basically means brain tumor. And it causes him to have seizures. And a few weeks ago he had one. And was intubated and in the PICU and now, he is down on our floor, but his mom is refusing to believe he will not recover. So, he lays in his bed. We turn him. We change him. We talk to him. He cannot talk back. Sometimes, when I am taking care of him, a tear rolls down his cheek. It breaks my heart. Because his mom can't "give up", he goes to dialysis twice weekly. That will keep him "alive" for a while. I wonder how many more tears I will see. |